Who I am: Working On Myself

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I am writing this blog to share my heart with you—my closest friends, my family, and my people. I want to open up about the challenges I face and what I need from you as we share this journey together. Life with me is not always going to be easy, and I hope that by sharing my thoughts, we can strengthen our bond and deepen our understanding of each other.

You might know me as someone who can come off as rude at times. It is my way of coping, a shield I put up to protect myself. But beneath that exterior, there is a lot more going on. My past has taught me to guard my heart closely. I might talk back and stand up for myself because I have learned to protect what I feel. My emotions can be fragile, and I often find myself overthinking everything, fearing the worst. I need you to be honest with me. Trust has been broken in the past, so I crave straightforwardness. It is important for me to hear words of love, but even more, I need to see that love through your actions.

I am on a journey to learn how to love myself, to see myself the way God sees me. Every day, I battle the voice in my head that tells me I am not enough. I also wrestle with anxiety and depression, and some days, just getting out of bed is a challenge. But I want you to know that I am a fighter. I will fight for your love and for our connection, and I will not give up. I will work on myself to be better everyday. I truly believe that the love I receive from you is the greatest gift from God. I do not feel I deserve it, yet here I am, blessed to have you in my life.

To those of you who love me even when I am a burden, who stand by me even when life feels messy, and who correct me when I am wrong—you are my people. I have learned that true love means being there for each other, even when it is hard or inconvenient. Thank you for accepting me as I am, for your patience and understanding. I am so grateful for each one of you.

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